Shallow Breathing

I'm not ready, I'm not willing to open up again. Let these words fall on the deafest of ears. I'm not ready to do this all again. I swear this is the end of me.

All the times past I saw signs.
Wishing I could be on time.
Grasping for your hands.
Losing all my friends.

Take a picture of all I've lost.
Place it inside a black box.
Never open it for my best looks are taking calls.

I'm not ready I'm not willing to start this all again. No exceptions I feel dead. I'm not ready for this happiness to happen again.

I'll never be ready.
I'll never be happy.
I'll never be over all this pain.

I'll never be steady.
I'll never be glad to be
In this hole with you.

Take notes of all my worries, please.
Let the wind out of these sheets.
Shake off this dust and let me be.
I'll never wake up, I'm lost at sea.

I'm not ready I'll not willing to open up again. My heart is weak and faltering. I'm not ready for this next day. I swear this is the end.

Dreams of Machines by Lost At Sea

Falling back into these old rhythms

Playing dead with your face on my mind

Gears turn in time, humming sweet rhymes

Getting taken on the ride of my life

I’m lost in these dreams of machines

Frantically clinging to these fleeting ideas

I hope these wings can carry the wind

(blowing smoke) isn’t my means to an end

We take these days all in stride

You are my pride

Waking up with these clouds on my eyes

Covered closely by the birds in the sky

We float along sailing on the breeze

Never knowing what worlds we’ll see

I’m lost in these dreams of machines

Frantically clinging to these fleeting ideas

I hope these songs can carry the wind

Blowing smoke isn’t my means to an end

High above the pain and confusion

We sail away far away.

Lost among the wires and illusions

We stray away far away

I’m lost among these dreams of machines

Frantically clinging to these fleeting ideas

We sailed away hoping for a fresh start

We succeeded, this is my means to the end

Hear I am, holding the world in my hands. 

Gloom

I can’t escape these worlds in my head

Spending nights wishing that I was dead

All of this pain that I feel

I can't make these wounds heal

All I wanted was to wake up and have you next to me

I can’t deal

Woke up at five a.m. all alone

Pacing back and forth in my dark room

Pictures on the wall taunting me

Making me hollow

All I wanted was your touch on my shoulder

You’re just haunting me

Fractured in my mind

I blink and then I die

These memories

Won’t escape me

Never take me

Break me down I’m just a bum

Hunt me down and tell me I’m done

Shadows always taking me

Past empty rooms

All I wanted was your kiss on my lips

Taste the gloom

Drifting off to sleep again

I wrap up my soul and then

I take apart my skeleton

To rearrange myself again

Why do I wish for this end

Window To Nowhere

i'm on the outside always looking in cause
i can't make right from all the wrongs and
i wish that i could just fit in but
the world can't see me for who i am with
all these veils around their eyes i
can't escape the truth in lies
this isn't who i really am
this isn't who i really am

i'm on the outside always looking in no
never wishing for an escape from sin tho
wanting to join the group that's pounding
at my front door and trying to pull me
into the front yard now i'm dirty
push me one way pull another
i can't escape all the thunder
I fall apart as i drop farther

i'm on the inside bursting to get out cause
all these days exist in repetition
all this time spent with out attention
to the better things
to the things i really need
to all the better things
to the people i really need now

i'm on the inside
always feeling dim
turn the lights off now
i'm going to bed