Hannah Hampton, you cursed me. I know it. You cursed me. I always believed that over time relationships would get longer. Not shorter. My first one was two months, at the end of high school. Then I dated you, for six/seven months. After you I dated someone for a month, roughly. After her my next was only TWO WEEKS!
You cursed me.
Unless, I'm not cursed, I just haven't found another one like you. Someone that makes me happy that I'm attracted to that actually likes me back. Likes me enough to go past just being friends. I know that when we made that leap it was good until about month five. Being that young, 18, and trying to have a girlfriend with no job, and never being that close to a human being before it messes with your head and your heart.
I realize now that I took you for granted sometimes. I also realize now that if I could go back and fix the things I messed up we'd still fail. You being a Christian, and me being an Atheist. It would have ended eventually. I just know that what you gave me I'll never forget. You gave me an ear to talk to, a hand to hold, eyes to fall into, a smile to cherish, and a personality to love. A person to love.
I haven't come across another Hannah Hampton yet in my life. I don't know if I ever will but if there is another, I'll do my best not to hurt her. I'm sorry for how it ended, I'm sorry for our differences, but I'm not sorry we feel in love with each other. I'll keep you in my heart until the day I die. I know that much.
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