I'm torn in two. I yearn for your affections and yet I desire to live a life of solitude. I'm driven to the latter because the former is impossible to achieve. I longed for a future unattainable. Filled with smiles laughter and love. Now my future holds distance and numbness.
You are still chasing him and I'm chasing you. It's the law of love, to want what you can't have. I'd rewrite that law to have you with me but I know I'd fail. Fail as your savior, your lover, your happiness.
I'm me and you're you. I can't change your wants I can't change your needs I can't fulfill my own dreams. I hold this heart in a bloody fist waiting to hand it to you and have you accept it.
For now I'll encase my heart in ice and freeze the thought of you. Hide it from myself. For you are the fire that gives me light, hope, and warmth.
I'll bask in the warmth until it wains.
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