Its too early to be reading books about religion.

Sitting in the dark that consumes me, I have learned news that I will remain single for a while longer. The prospect I had has fallen away from me. I'm upset of course but I need to realize that these things happen. I just need to concentrate on something else. Not girls. Even though right now I really want and feel like I need a girlfriend. I'd love to have that companionship. I miss it. I miss my ex in a way. Even thought she wouldn't approve of the life I'm leading right now. However, I'll probably still try to date someone. I hate how lonely I feel. I want someone to like me the way I like them. Is it so hard to get that? I guess so.